My life is full of sorrow

My life is full of sorrow , i did not know why God gave me so much sorrow , still i feel water in my eyes , i feel saddness in my heart , i feel sorry in my mood . i donot know why God gave me so much sorrow , so much pain in my life , oh ! God , can you give me some light so that i can also cheer up like another guy , now i am crying in my inner world , i still feel a sea of saddness in my inner world , reason in known to my close friends , my mistakes , my wrong decision s , gave me pain. I want complete detached from these thoughts so that i can overcome all my hindrance
and be a successful man in life .
I am abstract boy , far behind from the real world, i have to face real world with reality , not with dreams , . Dreams , saddness , taking rest , i think i have to forget all these things and i have to be strong , logical , a real boy who wants to face all real life situation with a smiling face , who is dare enough to challenge the situation and will win every battle of life , i have to be strong , courageous , though whatever result it is , i have to be strong enough to face it.
donot cry , crying is not a real solution , real solution is courage , strenght , and iron determination. though i have missed a chance in life once , but i have to be built again , i have to be strong again.

My College Friends

All they are established in life except me , so i am very frastated . I have to do something good in life so that my friends become proud of me . Otherwise again i will be frastated . My friends are high salary paid , but my salary is very small compare to them . This is the reason of frastation .
Please donot laugh at me . Oh god , do something miracle ! so that .......................

My School friends

I have a lot of my school friends , they love me a lot , i love them also , they are my inspiration . Actualy i am a boy of introvert nature , so i did not contact too many people , just my family & and my school friends , thats all . So my friend list is very small , you can see it .But the little friends are very nice , very inspiring .

OLD FRIEND

today , I watched one of my old friend's orkut profile. Really , its inspiring . Whenever your friends are making progress , then you definitely get inspiration from that , as i get . Life is not smooth sailing for all the time , there are so many undulations , and you have to face all of them , sometimes happiness , sometimes sadness , life is a mixture of the things , all you have to do ,
remenber god & fight against all the hindrances in life , definitely you will succeed in life . Fight and then again fight , then you will be owner , always go with your friends , donot take rest so much that your friends cross you , and you become the last one.

tapabrata mondal

The Poem

i want to fly like a bird
i want to swim like a fish
i want to run like a beast
i want to fight like a tiger
i want to teach like a teacher
i want to float like a cloud
i want to dance like a dancer
i want to flow like a river
i want to blow like a wind
i want the everything that i need

Passage Retrieval

After document retrieval , now i have to work on passage retrieval , its a little bit tough , but i have to concentrate on it , as it s a important work i have to do . Its a part of Information Retrieval , the topic i may register my name in phd . So i have to work hard . i have done till 10% of the job . Only POS tagge i have run on the files ,, a lot of work yet to be done , there is a lot of difference between document retrieval and passage retrieval in Question - Answearing system . In document retrieval you have to retrieve documents for answearing system , but in passaeral ge retrieval system , you have to specify extact location of the answear in the document , that is you have to mention the passage it contains the answear in a document , its more precise in QA system.
Monolingual QA system means you ina particular language ,
cross lingual means between two different languages ,
Multilingual means between several languages ,
My job is simple , monolingual QA system for Passage Retrieval,

Nature is beautiful

Nature is really beautiful , you cant imagine how looks beautiful it is .
Look nature and be happy always , nature is your best friend , so it is mine .

Nature is realy beautiful

Nature is realy beautiful

looks how beautiful they are

My dream

my dream is to be established in life , to be beautiful in life , like all my friends , i disturbe my friends a lot as always a want to attach with them , this makes them sometimes unhappy ,
Some of my good friends are Anamitra - he is now in IBM research centre ,
Dibyendu De - he is a doctor ,
Debalina Ghosh - she is in Hong Kong as a MBA,
i have a option for MBA study , but it is part time , in ICFAI university .
In my new job environment , my friends are good , there are Phd students , one of them in his final year of thesis submission - Sudip Naskar .Another phd student is Asif Ekbal.
My project is English to Indian Language machine Translation . Progamming language Java ,
basically we have to do some java programme , and bengali to english translation, and synset programme .
When ever you look your friends are progressing , and if you cant for some of reasons of past , then it s very pathetic, its realy unbearable , and i had to go in that way , painful .
when i left CTS i was totally out of the think that i have to proceed in life.
Though it is past , but it is a painful side for me . I want to forget that side.
Prof . Sivaji Bandhoypadhyay gave me a new identity , asa junior research engineer and also assured me for phd programme after the year . Its great for me . Its a new life for me.
If there is God , then definitely he will do the right thing for me , i have to pray a lot .

As a Researcher

hi , now i am a junior research engineer in Jadavpur University . Now i have discussed with Sir for my Phd programme , he told me to do that after this year. So i have to wait for other chances like job in any company , or Gate exam , then after the year he will consider me for Phd programme.
In the mean time i have published for Clef competition , and now when ever i hard that my friends are roaming across world , then i become very upset , i missed the opportunity by leaving my first company , that is cognizant technology solution,